I’ve written about video games in #5 - Addictions where there’s a cute and innocent picture of me at two years old holding a nintendo controller. I’ve realized and admitted for myself that I have a problem and have had for most of my life. I have an unhealthy addiction to video games.
“This time I can play the new game, enjoy it and be in control of my life and go to bed when I want.”
Fast forward a few days or weeks and I’m going to bed at 4am and eating unhealthy and I have to uninstall the game to gain back control over my life. This cycle has happened so many times and now two weeks ago the shift really took place when I admitted that I have a problem and started talking to people about it and not feeling shame.
My biggest fear in life is life living me, which is how I feel when I play a lot of video games. Then I am always lagging behind. For me there is no playing a moderate amount of video games so I had to cut it completely.
In a sharing circle this morning I realized that escaping into my computer equals saying no to a lot of fantastic moments that I know are really good for me. I went away this weekend a couple of hours outside of Trondheim and I wouldn’t have done so if it was for the games, and it’s been such a wonderful experience.
I want more of this in my life.
More of saying yes to the small things.
I recently heard about a noticing exercise that I try to do once every day:
Take one activity, the less meaningful and the smaller, the better. Put an extreme focus and intensity into it. Example: while scooping jam with a teaspoon, handle the spoon with maximum intensity and be completely at one with the moment.
Highly recommend!
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Happy throws,
J
I dig texts like these. This is the kind of stuff that makes me write in the first place.